You ever find yourself jabbering away? Especially when someone asks you questions, but you can’t seem to answer yes or no. That happened to me tonight.
I don’t know why I just kept talking about all problems, but I did. I didn’t stop, I just kept going.
I feel like every time I open my mouth it is negative. Here for the past month, there is so much I have been through, and I can’t put my emotions on hold. I can’t bite my tongue.
What is wrong with me?
I use to never talk about my problems, never throw it out in the open. Here recently it is all I do.
I have been house bound for so long, and now I have the ability to get out and see the world again, but I realize how much people will back stab you, talk about you, make you feel like shit, and quite frankly I have just about decided to hide in my house again.
I stayed 3 years in this house, never really leaving, unless I had to. I never wanted to get “out”.
Maybe this pregnancy just has me under some kind of depression stage? I have no clue.
I just wish I could make all the bad juju go away, all the bad thoughts, all the bad everything just end, so I can actually enjoy myself again. And most of all, Enjoy this Pregnancy that took me 9 months to get.